Story time.. (for the anon I said I’d post a personal for)
I liked my boyfriend when I saw him struttin his stuff down the halls of our high school sophomore year (my first year, his second). We eventually HAD to meet because everyone that was in the music department knew each other. Pretty sure it was my best friend who became friends with his friend and then whatever we met.
He was and still is the funniest person ever. Having him around was always great and his smile is to die for! He was always nice to me and just made me laugh and I loved looking at him… but he had a girlfriend. I really always had a crush on him.. but I’d just stop myself from liking him too much because he was in a relationship.
Junior year came along and we were still friends. Honestly, he was a big part of my life. Mostly because I didn’t befriend people. I was nice to people… but I didn’t really care about people. Him, his friend, my best friend, and my friend who lived near me but didn’t go to our school were really the only people who meant anything to me sophomore and junior year.
So the juicy stuff, at some point him and his gf broke up ;) so you know what that meant right? I was like eyyy yooo wasssaaaapppp you tryna make out or something? lol jk. I’m not 100% sure how it started… but we started talking more, and passing notes to each other… and he’d pick me up from class, and I’d pick him up from class.. and sometimes we’d see each other at the park across the street.. and we stated kissing and holding sweaty hands… he even came over like twice :) He was really nice.. and he was really attentive and gave me lots of attention. But I felt as though I could never be good enough for him, because I felt like his ex girlfriend was so much better for him than I was… and that sooner or later (if he didn’t already) he’d miss her and want her back.. so we stopped what we were doing.
This may be the saddest part. I didn’t just lose some guy I made out with to his ex girlfriend… I lost my friend. He stopped talking to me.. idk why exactly. I was seeing another guy, his girlfriend didn’t let him, he thought I was mad at him… idk… just reasons. Junior year ended… Senior year began and we’d see each other in the halls and just keep walking past each other. I was honestly hurt. I missed it. Because till this day there’s just something amazing about his presence, and I didn’t have that anymore.
Senior year a lot changed for me too. I think I was sad. My best friend was in a relationship and now this guy I really liked is back with his ex… I knew it’s what I kind’ve wanted… because it wasn’t stressful. I didn’t have to worry about not being good enough and thinking about him missing her… It was just easy to accept that I wasn’t good enough and that she was better for him… So I started dating this guy… things started off amazing. I felt over my bf and i didnt care about him and his gf anymore. This guy took my worries away… then things got bad. I was in a very abusive relationship for a while. Not so much physically as it was psychologically abusive.
We graduate high school, still not talking. We don’t even have each other on facebook, I don’t even know his number. But occasionally I ask our mutual friend how he’s doing.. because I still care. He meant a lot to me. I’m the type of person that melts to people being genuinely kind to me, and he was nice. I had good memories that I tried to silence the bad ones with.
THE MOST AMAZING PART!
So an ex of mine, let’s call him Bob, came to visit me and we were trying to figure out what to eat (we were already broken up but in the process of seeing if we could patch things up or not). I decided I wanted five guys.. there are 2 near me. For some crazy reason I decided to go to the one a little further from me (near my old high school). I told Bob “I have the feeling I’m going to run into someone from high school.” & WHAT DO YOU KNOW! There he is! My current boyfriend. Bob went to the bathroom and I got on the line. He was in front of me.. and idr it’s all a blur now. He turned around someone said hi to someone… we did that chit chat… and yeah Bob came out of the bathroom whatever..
I can’t begin to describe what it was like to see him again. It had been about 2 years since we last saw each other.. and about 3 years since we last spoke. I felt like something had returned to me. I felt a relief. I was so nervous thinking he was still mad at me, or he still didn’t want anything to do with me. Suddenly, just looking at him I got all these nice memories back. Not specific ones… just general ones. Hugging him in the hallway… laughing about dumb things at the park.. cutting a class or two with him… Even right now it’s making me so happy.
I sat down with Bob and kept wondering about this guy… I wanted to know FIRST OF ALL if he was still with that girl… If I say they were a COUPLE it’s a bit of an understatement, whether they were happy or not.. they were a 2 for 1 combo headed to high school sweet heart marriage town in my eyes and in the eyes of a lot of people I know from high school. So I just wondered sooo much about him. I wondered if he was happy to see me. I just wondered… and then yeah back to reality I was there with Bob and nothing had changed.
We were friends on facebook again and we spoke a little and he got my number and we kind’ve texted but then stopped. I think months passed and we didn’t speak.. then somehow randomly we started to speak again… and we kept texting.. and texting.. and texting… and texting.. and non stop all the time we texted all through the new year!
Text text text leads to us hanging out. I had gone on a lot of dates… I wasn’t nervous really about going out… I’m an anxious person but I can handle one on one dates with a guy. So I was ready. I got purrrrty, but i figured he didn’t wanna see me cake on the make up so I didn’t. & I came downstairs and there he was… and he opened the car door for me.. now… I been picked up to go on dates before.. but NEVER has a guy opened the door for me.. and see.. had it been some type of slick rick nick swaggy character i woulda been like.. yeah this pussy aint poppin for this i can get my own damn door… with him i was like… awwwwwwwww.
Then what do I say.. we started seeing each other once a week. By the third day we saw each other we kissed (damns im a cla$$y a$$ chica). It was all perfect.
My mom and stepdad go to Peru…& it was valentines day and he surprised me and he fed me all the time… & eventually though I was reluctant he started staying over and just it got to the point where it was like living together and I never in my life expected anything like that to happen. I trusted him… and just little things I hate spending too much time with people.. but he’s different. I hate skin touching mine.. but with him it’s more than fine.. we got so close and just shared a lot of new experiences with each other and it really helped us grow… he also asked me to be his girlfriend and yeah things were great.
We are doing amazing. We’ve had 2 “fights”… but him and I have both been in previous relationships and we know what ACTUAL FIGHTS are like lol so we are barely counting our brief moments of frustration, confusion, and whatever else caused us to intensely bicker as fights.
This is the best relationship I’ve ever been with and it feels like the only real relationship I’ve been with. It’s the most mature I’ve been with a person… and at the same time we get sooo immature together. It’s amazing. He just is right for me.. his humor, his morals, his intelligence .. i mean he’s into what i’m into ;) you know?
He’s so sweet, and gentle, and he never gets mad at me. He’s protective, and always there when I need him. But he also knows when to be rough and he’s into everything. He’s not afraid of any parts of my body. He sings to me, and he writes me poems… everything I’ve ever wanted and never had.
It’s just crazy… how fate gave us a second chance. I have never ever ran into him randomly in the 6 years of knowing him. It has never happened. It probably would’ve never happened had I not decided to go to that five guys that day at that time.. He also had to decide to go to the five guys at that time on that day. Also, Bob had to have driven me there because I WOULD’VE NEVER EVER GONE to that one had Bob not been there. We also met at a perfect time.. and then actually started texting non stop at an even more perfect time.
It just really worked out for us.